Where Do I Turn When We Weren’t So Close?

You can take away all my love
What do I need it for
You can take away all these words
There’s no meaning anymore
You can take away everything
Leave me lying on the floor
All those sorry’s we can’t go back to the start
You can’t fix me, I’m torn apart

I wanna run away from love
This time I have had enough
Every time I feel your touch, I’m broken
Shattered all the pieces apart
Never thought I’d fall so hard
I’m putting back together my heart, it’s broken

You can take these photographs
Watch them fade away
You can throw away all these letters
I don’t care about what they say
All those sorry’s, there’s a million reasons why
You can’t mend me, don’t even try

I wanna run away from love
This time I have had enough
Every time I feel your touch, I’m broken
Shattered all the pieces apart
Never thought I’d fall so hard
I’m putting back together my heart, I’m broken

I know it’s gonna take some time
To finally realize
I got nothing left inside, nothing to hide
I’m broken, I’m broken
My heart is overwhelmed
I’m broken, I’m broken
There’s nothing left inside
Save me
Save me

I wanna run away from love
This time I’ve had enough
Every time I feel your touch, I’m broken
Shattered all the pieces of part
Never thought I’d fall so hard
Putting back together my heart, I’m broken

I’m broken
Save me
Save
I’m broken
Leona Lewis: Broken

13 February:
Super duper tiring and yet satisfied day. Did spring cleaning for my room, I know it sounds incredible, but from 11am-4.40pm, I tidied my TABLE only. My table is those writing table cum computer cum book shelf table, so it’s difficult to clear. I got to admit, usually I don’t do any tidying up!

Went gramp & granny’s house for reunion dinner. Think it’s a sucky one like every year. Everytime my Eldest auntie is around, it won’t be a happy reunion dinner. Hate the sight of her. She’s so freaking naggy, gahh. Anyway ended up chatting on the phone, thanks dude for keeping me company! If not I think I will die and rot down there sitting on the chairs.

Grumbled and complained to mummy, why can’t we have reunion dinner at 外公外婆’s house. I know it’s the tradition have to go to daddy’s side one, BUT gramp and granny have my cousins to keep them company, while my 外公外婆 only have my uncles and no grandchildren to have reunion dinner with them!!!! Bleah.

My cousin looked so different. She dyed her hair golden brown, short and a bit spiky hair, grey contact lenses which totally doesn’t suit her at all, eyeliner which doesn’t suit her as well duh. Why plaster your face in make up when you look pretty without any? People who need make up all the time are ugly people, that I can confirm. Main reason is because cosmetic ruin your complexion, making it full of clogged pores and yellow skin.

I’m just so not interested to talk to my dad’s side relatives because I dislike them, so?

14 february:
Went visiting to gramp & granny’s house again. My 2nd auntie and cousin actually asked me how do I tie my bun O.o And my cousin even said that if se grows her hair back long she’s gonna tie it like that. Gosh lah, be more original can or not, I tie you also want tie your hair like that. AT LEAST, she bothered to ask me HOW to tie it. Having same hairstyles doesn’t mean you copy, but please don’t tie your hair when you see other people tie it this way and you find it pretty. Style your hair in ways that suit you, and not blindly copying or following the trend. Unless you’re styling it that certain way because the weather is scorching.
P.s Eldest auntie nagged again. GAH! Even my mummy and other relatives can’t stand her as well. Bet none of her children will want to look after her when she’s old because she’s so damn freaking naggy and complain about stuff that’s so ridiculous.

Visited another 1 of my relative, great-grandmother, and lastly my favourite, my 外公外婆’s house!!!! I love my 外公外婆, my uncles and aunt Heheh ate many tidbits at 外公外婆’s house, damn full!!!!!

CNY is always so exhausting, rahhh.

Before I go off, I wish all of you a BLESSED HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND VALENTINE’S DAY!

P.s I have a group of rocking GFs Loves!

It’s A Long Road When You Face The World Alone; No One Reaches Out A Hand For You To Hold.

First of all, I wanna thank all my sweetest GFs who gave me a gift or even a note for this valentine’s day, and my super duper nice god-brother who was forced to buy chocolate for me

Chinese New Year celebration in xms suck every year, teachers always tried to make an attempt to get the atmosphere high but fail miserably. Next time don’t scold us for being noisy or some random tiny matter plus let us go off at 11am we would maybe like celebration in xms

At least collection of newspapers was fun! Sad thing that the level(7th floor) me, joanne, xiuming and tin fung went to no one want to open the door for us except for one. But she donated other day already so no more for us D:
P.s Alycia and I pro at tying newspapers! ;D damn neat to max.

Everything ends at 1pm,sianz lor!!!! So late. Went PS with the girls, had pastamania (spicy chicken fusilli!!!superb delicious and spicy ), daiso with xj, mrt with xj and home! Didn’t catch movie with the rest because I got tuition at 5pm D:

Tuition always pass damn fast, probably because me and miss rachel (yes my tuition teacher is call rachel too! but with the surname LIM) kept gossipping about many many stuff. Hahaha. Tuition has never been this enjoyable. Miss rachel rocks okay & she say that I am skinny,LOL!

Chinese new year is a time to get fat. Plus I ate long john silver take away for dinner by my mum!!! Love it, but fattening
I shall control my mouth and not get too excited by what I oculd eat during chinese new year x.x

P.s.s There’s a few things I hate about a guy:
1) They are such big liars.
2) They always make empty promises.
3) They promised to be there for you always and soon after they disappear from your life.
4) They said they would love you forever and they never fail to break this promise.
5) They often say they want to be with you forever or a certain period of time and they always end up not doing so.
I will join the anti-boys club soon with my dearest sister,LOL!

byes byes and have a happy holiday babes.

I Hate Farewell.

Not sure if I posted this song on my blog before, but it’s nice

Getting more and more busy recently, so I will be MIA from my dearest blog for days. Sighs, sometimes just wish to sit in front of my computer and bitch about every single teeny weeny thing in my life, and yet I dont have that much of a time to spare. Life zoom pass so fast.

Shall try my best and recall every interesting thing that happen this week, so I can look back to it when I graduate, remembering all the times I had fun or the crazy things I did in school.

Monday:
Received an sms from * which was damn scandalous!!!!! MR H and MRS T in hougang mall walking side by side, LOL. Please lah teachers, if you don’t want students to pass rumours about you all, don’t be so scandal and be nicer to us students next time

Tuesday:
PE SUCKS!! MR H don’t want to let us have PE, complained and complained, nagged and nagged that we were super noisy blah blah blah. Even yang lao shi also not as long winded like you lorr!!! Well MR H paraded all of us around the school with a finger on our lips (like we care) and made us stand outside the science staff room. Waste my time never get to exercise!!!!! What type of shyt teacher is he -.-
&&& history test! Can’t remember I could complete the last question, but I suppose should be able to pass it?

Wednesday:
Ss test~ Left last question not yet finish writing,sianz.
GB was… Wore full uniform under the hot hot sun and marched around for very very long without any breaks, and kept doing the same stuff over and over again x.x
Arms ached.
Marching is tiring.
Commanding is easy.
Commanding and teaching and correcting people, I rather march.

TODAY:
I don’t know whether it’s a good thing or not that I didn’t quite study geog, only flipped through the textbook and yet I could attempt the questions without having too much problem. But results come out sure fail or just pass one Realised human geog must be understand through common sense
Was walking with xiao xin and hui feng to coffeeshop to have lunch and wanted to come back to class and help out with decorations, but stepped out of school and walked a few metres and dad smsed me and said he’s in school carpark x.x What a surprise.
Reached home, do some homework, took a nap…

CNY celebration tomorrow, bet newspaper collection or whatever is that around the hdb estate near school should be fun. But not very looking forward to celebration though

I, really hate farewell.

Feeling A Lil Lost.

Okay, I know I’m really very dead. 3 consecutive days of humanities tests, and i only studied half of history only. ss and geog untouched. Prepared to fail these tests already

On a lighter note, went compass point with mum today. Mum seemed to be in a really good mood, kept wanting to buy clothes for me. Lol. But just ain’t really in the mood to. Did get a dress from metro, pretty. Mum actually wanted to get 2 dresses and a shirt+shorts (don’t know what is that called lurh, it’s a sleeveless and not sleeveless top and shorts connected together). All 3 add together and it’s not even $100 But don’t want to spend so much, so only got 1 dress in the end. Saw a pretty heels, mum wanna get it for me Thing is it’s too freaking high, i think got more than 2 inches I’m gonna die young if i wear that heels. Shopping did lift my spirits up for awhile, but doesn’t quite help to heal anything.

Sighs…

I Tried To Tear You Out Of My Heart.

Emotions rushes in and filled me with anguish. Thinking about it, I realised I don’t know how to react to everything.

Slept real late last night, hence felt rather worn out today. Don’t know whether it’s a good thing or what, but I took the sec 1s for drills and me myself didn’t do drills at all. It’s super tiring to teach the sec 1 drills, some give the i-don’t-care face, asked them to stand straight they bend their knees. Having problem with this girl from 101 (shall not mention her name!). She seem to have attitude problem or something. Oh wells, I’m gonna step down soon and I don’t care. Even though mam vennie said that we have to help out till june, but I don’t freaking care. Mdm liew say 10 april and that’s it. I’m not gonna waste anymore of my precious time on GB no more.

Ji dan, got punished 4 rounds because fingernails TOO long (kns so short still say long) and shirt never tuck in properly. Oh wells at least I pass my skirt, pro right

Mam said that next wednesday will be sec 4 stage 2 drill test, DAMN! Sure cannot make it one. Walao. If I fail it this time I’m not gonna waste time take again also.

GB is a waste of time -.-

Went heartland mall with mum+bro and got another pair of shoes and skirt for cny.

Conclusion for even trying: you end up hurting even more.

A proof that I’m okaye:

You Will Be Happier Without Me.

This is a song that I can really relate to and it describes how I feel.

Been really busy these days. Everyday I’m filled with fatigue, never once in these days have I really rest well.

English composition test, chemistry test. Glad that I’ve got the inspirations for the compo question, if not I’m dead meat. Chemistry.. No such luck. Think I should be able to pass, but won’t be able to pass well.

Right after chemistry test, taught the 9 sec 2 drills. Think it’s productive, however time really flies and sky starts to darken. Commanding and teaching are so so exhausting!

Dad came down to school and sent me home. Tuition starts late because raining heavily and my teacher don’t dare to come out of her house

OHH. All of us are stepping down on 10 april! It’s the school rules, so I won’t be going back to gb to help once 10 april reach Totally can’t wait.

P.s A thanks to GFs who consoled me Just wanna say that I am fine

Wonder why I feel so strong and not emotional. But it’s good.

I long for a shoulder to lean on.