Feeling A Lil Lost.

Okay, I know I’m really very dead. 3 consecutive days of humanities tests, and i only studied half of history only. ss and geog untouched. Prepared to fail these tests already

On a lighter note, went compass point with mum today. Mum seemed to be in a really good mood, kept wanting to buy clothes for me. Lol. But just ain’t really in the mood to. Did get a dress from metro, pretty. Mum actually wanted to get 2 dresses and a shirt+shorts (don’t know what is that called lurh, it’s a sleeveless and not sleeveless top and shorts connected together). All 3 add together and it’s not even $100 But don’t want to spend so much, so only got 1 dress in the end. Saw a pretty heels, mum wanna get it for me Thing is it’s too freaking high, i think got more than 2 inches I’m gonna die young if i wear that heels. Shopping did lift my spirits up for awhile, but doesn’t quite help to heal anything.

Sighs…

I Tried To Tear You Out Of My Heart.

Emotions rushes in and filled me with anguish. Thinking about it, I realised I don’t know how to react to everything.

Slept real late last night, hence felt rather worn out today. Don’t know whether it’s a good thing or what, but I took the sec 1s for drills and me myself didn’t do drills at all. It’s super tiring to teach the sec 1 drills, some give the i-don’t-care face, asked them to stand straight they bend their knees. Having problem with this girl from 101 (shall not mention her name!). She seem to have attitude problem or something. Oh wells, I’m gonna step down soon and I don’t care. Even though mam vennie said that we have to help out till june, but I don’t freaking care. Mdm liew say 10 april and that’s it. I’m not gonna waste anymore of my precious time on GB no more.

Ji dan, got punished 4 rounds because fingernails TOO long (kns so short still say long) and shirt never tuck in properly. Oh wells at least I pass my skirt, pro right

Mam said that next wednesday will be sec 4 stage 2 drill test, DAMN! Sure cannot make it one. Walao. If I fail it this time I’m not gonna waste time take again also.

GB is a waste of time -.-

Went heartland mall with mum+bro and got another pair of shoes and skirt for cny.

Conclusion for even trying: you end up hurting even more.

A proof that I’m okaye:

You Will Be Happier Without Me.

This is a song that I can really relate to and it describes how I feel.

Been really busy these days. Everyday I’m filled with fatigue, never once in these days have I really rest well.

English composition test, chemistry test. Glad that I’ve got the inspirations for the compo question, if not I’m dead meat. Chemistry.. No such luck. Think I should be able to pass, but won’t be able to pass well.

Right after chemistry test, taught the 9 sec 2 drills. Think it’s productive, however time really flies and sky starts to darken. Commanding and teaching are so so exhausting!

Dad came down to school and sent me home. Tuition starts late because raining heavily and my teacher don’t dare to come out of her house

OHH. All of us are stepping down on 10 april! It’s the school rules, so I won’t be going back to gb to help once 10 april reach Totally can’t wait.

P.s A thanks to GFs who consoled me Just wanna say that I am fine

Wonder why I feel so strong and not emotional. But it’s good.

I long for a shoulder to lean on.

Can’t Be With Or Without You.

hot pink beaded necklace <3

LEADERSHIP CONFERENCE. If you are wondering why you didn’t see the GB sec 4s in school today for cca, that is because we went for this super stupid leadership conference at kuo chuan pss.

They sang many stupid songs, do many stupid things, which left me rather speechless. So I wasted 8 hours of my time today just to do stupid stuff? Sad to say, yes. The only beneficial things are the talks, which were rather interesting. However I was so tired that I didn’t really get what the speakers said into my head, so I really did waste a whole day at kuo chuan pss today.
P.s the officers there mainly suck!!! And I saw the mam who FLIRTS
Ewww!

Had twister fries with Jia En & co. Talked talked, and these wonderful girls gave me advices. But I am still unsure of what I should do, sighs. Dad drove to J8 and we headed to kovan ntuc to find mum, who was buying groceries and some cny food. By then I was exhausted. So you can imagine how worn out I am now.
P.s twister fries is super delicious <3

Finished the ss project, yays. Though it pales in comparison to Winglun’s group video, but I put in my very best already, so hopefully Mdm Tian will give us rather good marks for it too!

I WANT TO STEP DOWN FOR GB.

Dance With Me.

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Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid.

I feel really, really, really lost now.

Who will help me?

有谁在乎我?

Whatever I blog, it’s not meant to gain sympathy from anyone, because I need none.

I am very tired and yet I can’t go to bed.

Wish I Will Be Gone From Earth This Instance, For It Doesn’t Matter If The World Lose Me.

Dear God,
I pray that You will bless me with friends who care, friends who are true and not hypocrites. I am sick of these hypocrites. The only thing that I want to thank you for, is that You blessed me with a wonderful family, parents who really dote on me, a mum who wakes up early almost every day just to make breakfast for me and get my uniform neat and tidy, and a dad who drives me to school early in the morning. God I thank You for this.
Amen.

I’m sick of this. Very, very sick of this.

Studied in school today, not productive at all. Well I have decided that I’m not gonna study with anyone after school anymore, shall study alone in class the next time. Guess it’s more productive that way.

Sec 4 camp discussion tomorrow, sianxz.

Shall try and complete my 剪报 now, byes byes.

My Baby Smells Of Armani, Sweet.

Okaye I’m in the mood to blog again. Now I’m going to tell a story regarding kids who are so freaking uncivilised. Tsk tsk, parents never teach?

So after accompanying ruo xin to wait for the rest to come in church, I headed to the printing shop opposite of baby’s house to print some pictures PRETTY. Can’t wait to complete that thing Walked over to my house on my own, sadded I had to carried so many stuff on my own, ungentleman leh you, hope you are very guilty to the max

As usual, headed to the stairs at my house block. Sat on the stairs, and heard kids voices and noises of a ball being kicked around. We were at the 3rd floor, while the kids (about 10 years old and below?) were at the 4th floor. Once, the ball was being kicked to 3rd floor,so a kid ran down to get the ball and i think in the process he/she saw us.
Shortly after which (after a few times of ball rolling down again and again), I felt food being thrown down through the gaps of the stairs -.- Guess what, the kids are hiding at the stairs and throwing rollercoaster tidbits down at us. I was really irritated, as the volume of food being thrown down increases. One little girl even looked through the gap of the stairs and stared at us. HELLO, not like we were doing any intimate stuff, why throw food at us -.- I diao the girl of course, duh. However the throwing of food continued. And I kept hearing the little girl giggling.
At one point in time I was so fed up that I climbed the stairs, and guess how many kids I saw. 1 girl, 3 boys looking at me. And I told them rather angrily “Can you all stop it?”. They ran away after that, however shortly after, they continued playing the ball, and one time when the ball rolled down the stairs again, the girl and the boys were doing scissors,paper,stone to see who will go down and get the ball. LMAO, borh ji arh you all, dare to throw things at me don’t dare to come down take your stupid ball? Make me feel like ROFL when they don’t dare to take their ball a few times. Guess they are afraid that I will do something evil to them whatever lah.

BUT. That’s not the end. The kids actually threw paper balls and plastic down at US. FUCKKKKK! These kids like no parents teach de sia! Knn, I should have really scolded the kids and threaten to beat them up if they continue throwing down food and rubbish. _l_
Oh wells but I shall maintain my image for the sake of my baby :/ Can’t imagine if i started swearing at the kids, lolx.

No choice, in order to get away from the kids went over to the other stairs at my house block still. I totally think it’s not my day today, halfway when we ______, a uncle suddenly wanted to climb the stairs! Walao, so many stairs you cannot go climb other stairs de arh, ji dan gao.
Swey to max

I’m just bored lah okay.
Just feel like saying this to those no-life stompers after seeing pictures of young couples being taken and posted on stomp. This only applies to those who think they belong to this category.
Dearest stompers, I guess you are jealous when you took pictures of young couples kissing and hugging in public. It’s ridiculous to take them kissing at stairs or those isolated place though they are not in school uniform right? This just proves that YOU HAVE NO LIFE. Why in the world you care if teenage couples intimate not? Not like they are having sex right. If you say it’s not right for teenage to kiss in public, then where you want them to kiss and hug? If they could go to each other houses, they would much rather be intimate in their own homes rather than letting you these no life stompers taking pictures of them. What business is it of yours to take their pictures? TSK, go reflect lah shytface

I Feel Like Doing Some Bitch-Slapping.

A lot of things to talk about today.

Had CCA this morning, superb sian max. Forgot to bring the $60 for bubbletea, thank goodness miss wan hui lent me the money first, super grateful to her! [I don't quite care if you don't like her]

Changed out of GB uniform, had lunched with ruo xin and headed down to church. I must say all the complaining is for nothing, for after the discussion I personally think it’s pretty worth the time. Never knew discussion with staff tay is so fun, side-tracked many times led to many interesting talks.

Sometimes, people are not sensitive to one and other’s needs. Most of the time, they just don’t appreciate whatever work that other people do for them. It’s annoying me, when me or the exco did stuff, none of you girls appreciate us. Instead what did you return me with? Bad attitude. I have bear with all of your bad attitude till I can’t tolerate anymore. The most obvious girl who gives the most attitude to the officers and me is ____. Fill in the blanks, who doesn’t know who’s got the lousiest attitude in GB?
I hate it when people other than officers set many expectations for me. Before you set any expectations for any of the leaders, go think it through your shythead whether you can fulfill this criteria. If you can’t, or you are not any better than me, please shut your mouth and don’t make any comments about any of the leaders. If you think you are better than me, then step out and I will kindly let you run GB and be the head.
It is no fun being the leaders, and it is definitely NOT slack being the GB head. Who say it is? Who say it is easy being the GB head? If you think GB head just do all the saikang job, you are a very SHALLOW person. Please go widen your knowledge before you make a fool out of yourself to say that being a leader is an easy-peasy task. Stop being a bimbo
Who would want to be a leader, when it means you will be ostracise from whatever activities that your batch wants to do like go out shopping together etc? Why must you all ostracise good people? It’s not like we have bad attitude. At least, it’s better than most of yours. That I can double guarantee. Who would want to be a leader, when you can’t join in all the fun that your batch have?
Please just go reflect about yourself. Go think about it. Who’s the one doing all the stupid jobs like collecting forms and handing it in to teachers? Who’s the one that officers and teachers go to when something goes wrong? It’s the leaders. Or actually, me. You all always complain the officers likes to punish you all, but have you ever think why they want to punish you? It’s not like it’s thrilling to see 48 girls running around the parade square, and see them perspire and all. Go reflect. Why is it that I’m not punish somtimes? It’s because I knew that when in full uniform, we have to have short nails so on and forth.
I absolutely find it super double irritating when people ask me,”HUH! Why wear full uniform again?”. HELLO. It’s not like I’m the one who decide what attire to wear, it’s the officers. If you go the guts, go and ask mam vennie directly yourself. It’s not like the GB full uniform is so pretty that I want to wear it. Any idea how horrific I think it looks huh?
Just stop asking these stupid questions. It’s annoying me to the fully maximum.

SS project to be redo, crap lah.

Emotions Keep Spinning Out.

Hello, I’m back to blog again. Today suddenly got the mood to post
P.s be prepared, usually when I’ve got the mood to blog, it’s mostly about complains and rants.

Time pass fast, friday came and go just like that Now it’s sunday already!!! Haix, friday whole day gone, saturday also whole day gone, very sad Now I’m left with my pathetic sunday to complete all my homework. So pretty dead I guess.

I am so very lazy to complete the chinese xmoogle homework So torturing, but oh wells for the fact that I’m a sec 4 already I shall complete it, ASAP. If not when I lose this motivation I might just never finish it, with the piling homework, projects, not to mention all the stupid meetings and cca activities.

I wanna go out to shop!!! But I can’t complete my homework and revision this way Haven’t even start revising for this thursday A maths geometrical proof test!!!!!!!!!! So really dead. If only blogging can earn a lot of money then good -.- Jeez.

Oh no so not looking forward to my last orientation camp in GB!!!! It’s gonna be more torturing than hell, i double super bet and guarantee. I scared monthly bestie arrive on those days D: I pray and pray and pray that it won’t arrive on my camp days or a few days before, hope I would have end my period by the time my camp comes!!!! If not I don’t go to camp le x.x

Byes.

Honey Mustard Lah.

My blog is rotting and it has a rotten stench, eew. I’m busy with many stuff and also I’m super duper lazy to use the computer. Yes, that’s how lazy I am My once beloved blog is now rotting like nobody’s business. Aiya but no choice, I must learn not to use the computer for many days, since I’m a sec 4 already :/

This week… If my memory hasn’t failed me, nothing eventful happened. School is just this boring. So far the only thing that i had enjoyed about school is the air conditioner classroom, this means even on a hot hot day, I won’t perspire like a pig (ny always say i perspire like a pig so i shall use it ._.) and stink like a decomposing organism

Something is getting on my nerves real badly and if I don’t spew it out, I think I may go bonkers soon. One PARTICULAR teacher, is taking too long to teach geography. I mean seriously! I had done my calculations, and in 3 period time, she had only taught us 6 pages of Geography of Food. Goodness me how are we suppose to finish the syllabus fast enough to do revision? HELLOOOOOOO, can we like change teachers puhlease? There doesn’t seem to be any good geog teachers around xms. That’s really sad. The only lesson that I can absorb most is probably history lesson, though I hate history. Mr Pah really entertains us, but he doesn’t forget to feed us with more than enough history facts. His entertainment made us remembers the boring dead facts more easily. I probably have a chance of scoring better this year, compared to my just-passing-grades last year, HOORAYS.
Other than that… school is just really boring lor. I rather stay at home and sleep for the whole day.

Today was horrible. GB totally saps all of my energy. Full uniform, and the weather is hot like shyt. Had to walked around, do this do that. But it beats standing and not being able to fidget though. BUT BUT BUT, I would rather stand with the girls and not do anything, because it’s really tiring to oversee everything lor. The officers like not happy with me because attire check is taking too long, and I didn’t collect the CCA card at the start of the CCA. Sian. Once I’m out of GB I don’t have to suffer any of your tortures or face already, say HOORAYs for that. HIP HIP HOORAY. I can’t wait for that day to arrive.
P.s many people feel sick today. Sian, guess I have to pass down message to everyone to have breakfast before coming to GB. -.- Aiya, see how first. I got mood then send, if not I don’t care le lah. Don’t understand why some don’t want to eat breakfast especially the sec 2s gah ._.lll Don’t eat of course will faint lah haiyos. Hope it won’t happen again very tiring.

Went home, had lunch, bathed, headed down to church, met rachel and denise at the kovan old interchange. Coincidence. First time I’m so late for church, but who cares it’s my last session anyway, doesn’t matter. Like YAYS, I’m finally done with the session. Thank goodness I have been consistent for coming to church. Can’t imagine if I have to go for GB in the morning and go down to church again. Think sooner or later I will go crazy. So get it over and done with, and I can slack and do homework in peace

Headed to hougang mall with ruo xin, jia en and xiuming. Had subway for dinner. Had a feeling I will see church friends at hougang mall, and i really saw matthias when I was queueing up buying food! Hahaha think i psychic already

The one thing that captivate me MOST about a guy is his SMILE. I can really go crazy when a guy with a charming smile smiled at me lah, zomg. Sorry, old habits die hard I can’t stop going 花痴, if one day I did, that’s probably not fiona Oh no I am so amazed and charmed by his smile x.x

Byes.

The Sight Of You Irks Me.

Been a week since I last blogged. School reopen, and I’m a sec 4 student already. In like 3 months time I will be 16 years old. I like being 15!! 16 sounds really old lurh But looking on the bright sight, I can finally watch NC 16!
P.s this means that baby is even older

First day of school is all talks. Next few days were really annoying. Almost every single teacher who came in (or is it all?) will keep nagging and nagging about o levels. Give us a break la! Not like we don’t know o level is important right -.-

7/1/2010: Happy birthday to baby
P.s that is the only day that i really enjoy. Other days I just want class to end soon and go home, tired like shyt every day.

Orientation on friday (8/1). One word. Super duper exhausted max. Giving instructions and see that things get done, very tiring la :/ Though I super slack, only need to give speech. Repeated it for 8 times.
Rushed home at 5 plus pm, bathed, ate a bit of rice, went for tuition.

Lol walao didn’t expect my teacher to be a young female teacher, she’s still in university lurh. So I guess she’s about 5 years older than me? Not bad, but didn’t do much, she only went through with me some questions from my textbook that I don’t know how to do for further coordinate geometry.
Lesson cut down to 1 hour half, because I’m the only student (like private tuition!). The other girl absent because feeling unwell.

Went for church today, kinda regretted it. But oh wells wanna get it done quickly, wanna stay at home to study.

P.s seeing you makes me dislike you more and more secretly.

Byes.

I Want You By My Side, You Know I Need You Here Tonight.

I’m feeling bored to the max. Because I have to complete my homework and school is reopening in like 1 day’s time. CRYS.

Went out with family to have lunch today. Mum bought groceries, after which dad drove me to church.
It’s really nice to know that people say hi to you because they are glad to see you there, not like in school, whereby people say hi to each other and they don’t even quite care. These 2 girls always make me feel so welcomed, joy and limin!

Argh can’t help but drifted off once sermon started x.x Am super sleepy lurh >.< Kinda sad that there’s no cell discussion today! The thing that i look forward the most is cell discussion lor. Hmm, got to know our new cell group, am in joanne’s group together with ruoxin and some others! Hehehes, secretly happy that SOMEONE is same group as me Oh well, thou shall not say who that SOMEONE is

Omgosh. I think sec 4 will be a very miserable year for me since new teachers are joining our class. Can anyone understand the feeling of “with trepidation, i step into school, after a full 2 months of holiday.” Geez, that’s so harsh. Sorry I can’t help but to complain in here.

Probably going shopping tomorrow with family.

I love you.
P.s a very random one.

10th Month.

NEW YEAR. But i have no idea why am I feeling so dead and, hmm tired? No NEW YEAR mood, no mood for anything lurh.

Last day of 2009 what was I doing? A pity I didn’t get to spend it with ny Not like my mum would have approve of me celebrating New Year with my friends.
But I shall be thankful, as my parents brought us out to have pizza hut. Nothing great or fab, but we must learn to be contented right?
The treat after meal was seeing a group of cute guys who were dressed up stylishly, sorry lurh I can’t help it, can’t blame me as I haven’t been seeing any good looking guys recently okayes!

Today… Was spent in my home sweet home. Nothing better than home. Had breakfast, then went back to sleep. slept from 11am-2 plus pm, geezus. Guess I’m really worn out. Stayed at home, replayed 3 episodes of my favourite hongkong drama. Kinda feel like I wasted the whole day away.

I’M SO NOT IN THE COMPLETE-THE-HOMEWORK mood! HOW Holidays are meant to let us rest and relax. Yet we still have to do revision, complete the homework whatever bullshyt. so GREAT that I didn’t even do any revision, not to mention completing my homework. GAHH.

Maybe 2009 isn’t a fab-to-max year for me, but i sure know 2010 won’t be any better.

Thinking about school makes me feel like crying a river.
Oh gosh. I have 3 Gb teachers eyeing on me this “FAB” 2010. All 3 are 405’s teachers.

zOMGGGGGGG.

Alrights I’m off to prepare to cry a river out.
BYES.

For Every 99 Times You Looked Me In The Eyes.

P.s I just remember that 23 december is registration day for sec 1s and i did not rot at home. Went to XMS with family for registration. Lol saw many friends on duty there, and GB slacked But oh wells I’m glad that GB does not have any duty, if not I can’t help my parents out on the buying of books etc.

P.s.s A very BIG and HUMONGOUS thanks to my friends for all the sweet christmas gifts!
P.s.s.s A bit late

 

Sighs. I’m extremely bored at home. Homework not done yet, very lazy to complete it. Shucks anyone who haven’t even touch their homework?

Gahhh.

 

Whatever I blog, I don’t need people to sympathise with me or anything.
I’m a loner, so what?

 

 Byes.

 

 

I’ll Never Talk Again, You’ve Left Me Speechless.

Guess I’m really getting reluctant to talk to people about my problems. Even though blogigng is my favourite mode of bitching/ranting my problems etc. Sighs. Getting more and more no mood with each day passing by…

22 December tuesday:
Went down to tanjong pagar for CIP work. Jeez I’m liking table tennis more and more. During my last visit to New Voice Club, i realised the elderly there taught me quite a lot of stuff. It’s really nice talking to them, and playing table table etc with them. Sang Christmas carols for them and we left. Promised the super adorable uncle that I will go back during the next school holidays, uncle anyhow say by that time he would have gone heaven already :/ Rawrs, touch wood.
Had Subway for lunch with ruo xin, jia en, qiao yi and isabel. Went to the mall there and shopped shopped [don't know what mall is that]. After this trip I finally know what present to give for my dearest sister for her birthday! Hopefully I can finish it by the time her birthday arrives.
Went down to kovan heartland mall with jia en after that, both of us were kinda in the shopping mood!
P.s got scolded by mum for being sucha shopaholic. 这么会溜! yeah that’s what my mum said to me on the phone, got real angry.

23 December wednesday:
Rotted at home. Something sad ahppen ;(

24 December thursday:
Didn’t go to miss tan christmas party. Haix no mood because of what happen on wednesday. Well sister didn’t go either, so no point I go because i wanna pass her present one lor, but oh wells. However I did went hougang mall with mum and bro. Sianz didn’t buy anything No nice clothes or shoes to buy
Ooooo, me and bro played arcade! I think that the guitar machine was nice, but i suck at it, lols x.x Went to park afterward, passed ny present, slacked and went home. Finally one time that my mum didn’t nag at me for going out. But feel real guilty for lying to her about whom I went out with.
P.s I find aunties and uncles are weird people. This particular uncle kept jogging around the park, and everytime he jogged passed me and ny he kepy turning and looked at us! KPO o.o

25 December friday:
Christmas. Another bored christmas. Watched the super nice hongkong drama from morning till evening. Went compass point jackplace and had dinner. The food suck!!! I eat until i want to vomit But anyway saw fengwei! LOL. Nearly cannot recognise him, not that he changed or what la just that too long never see him already :/ He said xianting saw me, but i never see her leh!! :/  Returned home and continued watching my hongkong drama.

26 December saturday:
Watched drama, met jia en at heartland mall, headed down to bugis, ate lunch and shopped!
Didn’t get anything at both bugis junction and bugis street :/ Nothing pretty. Went to heartland mall, didn’t get anything either. HMMPHS!
Raining, thank goodness mum asked me to bring umbrella. Shared umbrella with jia en, thought we’re late for youth ablaze. In the end we’re right on time :/
Walked to heartland mall with ruo xin, had kfc. Lol and we saw zonghan!!
P.s his mum is pretty

27 December sunday TODAY:
Went to the zonal + cell bonding with ruoxin. ruoxin damn unlucky la,just stepped out of church not long then slipper strap came out x.x Went heartland mall AGAIN, ruoxin bought another pair of shoes and we headed down to joanne’s house with staff tay. Ate a piece of pizza for lunch. Played taboo. Gift exchange. Wash up. After which ruo xin and I went off first.
Went home and finished watching my hongkong drama! Oh my gosh the guys are hot x.x
P.s They say looks are deceiving. But it’s still the wrapping that matters. The feeling of your gift that doesn’t seem great, and it’s the only present left down there and no one wants it. Shouldn’t have went at all.

Sighs. I hate school.
byes.

I’ll Be Your Girl Backstage At Your Show.

MIA for days. Lazy to switch on the computer again.
Oh wells. Tuesday did not quite end happily, went home late and got a dressing down from mum. What an ending.
Wednesday. Met up with tin fung at kovan mrt and headed down to orchard. Shopping trip with alycia, tin fung, cordillia and christy. Hahaha didn’t get anything at orchard. Went Hula & co, saw a dress that’s pretty, but it’s BLACK [very dull colour i don't like] and it’s so Christmas-y, plus it’s a bit too long for my height, so didn’t get anything. went off at 3 plus pm, went to hougang mall on my own. Got presents for my 2 dearest people! Hehehe can’t wait to pass to them

Thursday.  Rot at home.
Friday. Went heartland mall with mum and bro. Got english essay writing reference book and chinese one. Bought other necessary stationery as well. [me and bro bought many stuff ffrom popular, HEAVY!] Plus, return the 2 books i had rented, got back $18. Rawrs Banana’s clothes very pretty, should have got that top, only $20, good bargain lor :/

Saturday. YOUTH ABLAZE! Don’t know why youth ablaze suddenly so little people attend. Many missing people. Sermon was nice, think pastor whatever-his-name-is [sorry i can't remember! i think he's from sri lanka ] was super humorous. Sermon was about recognising God’s voice, and don’t mistook other voices in our lives as God’s, because it might not be necessary be His. Worship was hmm.. I don’t know, kinda feel like something was missing. Passion perhaps? Cell discussion, erh topic kinda random. Cell + zonal bonding on sunday, i shall go since i’m not going to the 30-31 december bonding :/

TODAY. Hougang mall with mum. Bought a pair of open toe flats. Phew that i didn’t regretted getting it, mum said it’s unique, the colour is light blue, pretty pretty! I can never get tired of looking at clothes, bags, shoes ;P Didn’t see any pretty clothes in hougang mall though me and mum went into almost every clothes store. A lot of very auntie clothes :/ Even my usual favourite A,DREY don’t have any nice clothes! Saw one not bad lah, but didn’t get it since i saw it in the store a few months ago, a bit out already :/ Don’t wanna see prettier clothes then regret my decision of getting that top x.x

Anyone wanna watch “new moon” with me on 24 december at around 4pm?
Venue: AMK Hub.

Sighs, byes.

P.s I’m into lady gaga songs currently.

Indolent.

I’m feeling bored. Really really bored. However, I just can’t bring myself to complete the holiday assignments. Oh gosh. To think i still said i wanna study hard during this holiday. Geez, i better pray to God and ask Him to give me some strength to focus on my studies, and not get distracted by all the temptations that are around me. [the comfort of my home]

I think the school teachers are being rather cruel. My family don’t read newspapers, other than my mum [chinese newspapers ._.], so the teachers should have kindly provide us with websites that have articles right? Never mind i will survive using straits times, just hope the teachers won’t say anything about using all 4 articles from the net. What a tough homework. Though the comprehension and summary are difficult as well, but at least it beats doing the articles okay. The articles still includes doing it in a Paul’s Wheel or Analysis and 6 Thinking Hats! Not to mention we must present it in a write up. So cruel. Teachers also never teach how to CRITICALLY EVALUATE and RECOMMEND USEFUL SOLUTIONS, unless they want us to write it in the format of formal letters to editor? Oh crap lurh i hate this assignment just by talking about it already.

How boring can my life be. I can’t find any motivation to start on my homework,oh dear. and school is reopening in like 2 weeks plus time? SEC 4. Faints. Uh don’t tell me to go for retail therapy [shopping], not because I’m a spendthrift and spent all my allowance on that, but because I wanna save money? I mean, all of us, especially the GIRLS, have to stop going out for shopping so much. Think for your parents yo. Forget what i say if you’re a MISSY or you’re just darn filthy rich. I’m jealous of you for being filthy rich, but I’m sure you’re just as jealous as me because my parents, at least my mum does, keep me company. You only have your friends plus your branded stuff to keep you company, that’s real sad. I feel sad for you,aww.
P.s what i said are not pin-pointing at anyone, just saying my point of view. Please do not feel offended if you feel I’m talking about you.

Watched the show “Life Transformers” on Channel 8 earlier on. Never fails to move me to tears. An eleven years old boy can actually be so mature in thinking! He do understands his home situation. He did not really help in any ways, but he does think for his ill-ridden parents and also keeping his depression mum company, and the thing that i envy about this family the most is, LOVE. They may be in poverty, but hey, the husband love the wife vice versa. Where can you get this? I mean, the wife has depression, which guy will be willing to stick by her side? What’s more her thinking is like a kid as well. Poor guy, he had diabetes, cholesterol, artery clogged up or something. Plus he has been out of job for 3 years. BUT. You know what this guy said that made me so touched? He’s so willing and love his wife whole-heartedly all this while because of the vow he had made when they married.
“To have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death us do part.” It probably sounds silly to you, but I do hope that the guy i marry will not break this promise to me. What’s the use of saying it when you won’t do it?

Alrights time for me to go. I’m still feeling lazy to make an attempt for the english homework, oh dear. I will try my definite best to touch it :/

CIP work at tanjong pagar tomorrow. Lol looking forward to it because I can make an excuse to meet someone later.

Goodnights.

p.s went to sign up for A math tuition an Intellicat just now.

Holiday Often Makes Me Bitchier.

mia,very lazy to use the computer.

yesterday was FABulous.
not because of GB flag day derh.
GB flag day sucks,the wearing of gb full uniform is okaye with me.
just that i hate how some singaporeans/foreigners[okay the foreigners part is not true la,since is only ONE particular type of foreigners,better not say later offend people] behaved/acted when we approached them for donations.

NUMBER 1:  people who pretend to take something their handbag/wallet/purse like they want to donate,and they obviously LOOKED at you like they wanted to donate,but instead walked away.wtf right?!!
NUMBER 2: people who pretend not to hear you and walk away.DEAF ARH YOU!suckers.i don’t mind people told me rather sternly that they don’t want to donate,but pretending not to hear?
HELLO,DO YOU EVEN HAVE THE BASIC COURTESY TO JUST SAY NO?ma de think i want to do flag day arh,wear the uniform so uncomfortable,then still need to receive this type of treatment from such losers.SERIOUSLY.i don’t give a damn to flag day okay.
and happy to say that i collected less than $10
i mean,hello,i don’t feel guilty AT ALL.
because the money goes to GB,and not any organisations which helped the poor or needy ones.SO,why should i put in the effort to ask people to donate or feel guilty at all for my behaviour?
since it’s my last gb flag day as a gb girl,why not jsut slack it off.

okayes back to why my day was FAB.
no details,sorry to the KPOs ones
out with baby,i love the park.
went over to another park,and there’s a cat there!!
the cat seemed to like us,’cause it climbed up the seat and lie down next to my baby.
ehh,I JEALOUS OF YOU LEH KITTY!
how dare you go so close to him,hahah.
hmmm,first time i stroke a cat,the fur was super soft and,hmm nice?
was rather hesitant to stroke it,scared that it will go bonkers and scratch me [not my face thank you].but i mustered up enough courage to stroke it,and it seemed to like it!
hehehe guess the kitty was tired,because it kept closing its eyes.
blah blah blah,rest of the day went past in a blur,nearly don’t wanna go home.

p.s why do such sweet and happy moments ended as fast as it started? what a pity it has a short lifespan…

went hougang mall with mum and bro today.
mum very kindly topped up $50 for our arcade card!
she has a voucher,and if you top up $50,there’s a $50 free.
so altogether my card has a $100.
played the machines while mum went to shop.
visited the library,and borrowed more books.
geez nearly forgot i haven’t finish reading the books that i rented.

rented 3 movies,”up”,”drag me to hell” and “i am legend”.
walao only can rent 3 days for $11,if late every one day add $1 to it ._.lll

so tired,shall sleep.
goodnights.

I’ve Been Tryin’ To Make You See, Everything You Need Is Right Here With Me.

dress to impress.

zonal lunch.
bought macs and had it in church.
jia en sent me my favourite “brain juice” game,am very addicted to it!
was practically playing it for the 2 hours while waiting for youth zblaze to start.
hey,at least i didn’t fall asleep kaye,since my long sleeve top is so snugly

my oh my.i just got to voice this out.
did anyone noticed that the drum/guitar whatever instruments are there at youth ablaze are super duper loud?
alamak less than 10 times of youth ablaze[i think] and i can feel that i’m going deaf x.x
i admire those who can stand it man x.x

worshipping today,and no sermon yays
cell group discussion is about outings,tuning out.

upset.
i’ve been trying very hard,to make things more interesting.
what happen to you?
sometimes i just feel so not loved by you,probably you feel that way as well?
just don’t turn,and walk away from me.

who can understand how i’m feeling?

sometimes i feel like i don’t belong to anywhere,and i would much rather just stay at home than to go out.
listen to sad songs,hug my soft toys.
friends?hah.yeah right.don’t talk to me about that.
why bother to make friends if they don’t really seem to give a damn whether you are friends with them or not?
friends,no friends,no difference.

no where to belong.

i detest this.

Am I Bright Enough To Shine In Your Spaces?

something’s off.

stayed at home for the whole of today,and yet no homework touch.
geez i really should get started on my homework,but i just can’t seem to find the motivation and mood to do x.x
ohh no.

the story “bled dry” is yummylicious,it’s story about vampires,or should i say vampire romance?
it’s kinda like twilight.

sis promised to watch “new moon” with me,can’t wait
been some time since i see her!
haha not to forget gonna hit orchard with alycia on 16 december as well

the eerie loneliness.
you can be surrounded by many people,or in a crowded mrt train,and yet you can still feel lonely,all by yourself.
it’s really hard to get rid of that feeling.

good bye dearies.

Bad Romance.

kinda miss having my long fringe.
taken during near last year christmas.
see how much i have changed.

 

went to tanjong pagar today for cip work for new voice club.
i personally feel that it’s a fruitful trip,as the uncles there were all really friendly,and seem to treat us sec 3s girls as their grandchildren.
i’m gonna bring those traditional board games etc whatever i can find at home to new voice club next week

chatted with one of the uncles,he’s already 70 years old this year and yet he had to suffer from the effects of throat cancer.
he can’t even talked [but he seem to like writing a lot,chinese of course ],and he can’t even eat properly.
he had surgeries for 5 times and yet the doctor can’t mend the hole at his throat using his thigh flesh.
the uncles there really do regretted smoking,and they even warned us not to smoke,if not we might just end up like them.
so friends out there who smoke,do quit smoking okay?
i don’t want to see any of you end up like the uncles,it’s such a heartwrenching sight.
and those who don’t smoke,don’t ever try it out of curiosity.
you will regret.

 

went to have subway right opposite of the new voice club centre with ruoxin,jiaen,qiaoyi and jingwen.
subway is always so yummy
saving my cookies for tomorrow morning breakfast,so full :/
headed to chinatown with qiaoyi,jingwen and ruoxin,walk walk see see.
saw many pretty clothes,didn’t know that chinatown sell pretty clothes though the shops seem so old!
and the clothes don’t cost too much either.
shall go there some day!

 

rahh i don’t know how to go east coast park,i give up.
maybe we are not meant to go there after all.

 

happy 9th month.

Pass It On.

I’M BACK PEOPLE.

before i start blogging like bonkers,i wanna congratulate my bro for scoring a 260 for his psle!
top 10% in hips sia,i’m proud of you bro
xms you sure first few to get in!

anyway,i just got to say that pass-it-on camp rocks.
i was really hesitant to go to the camp,and in the end,it’s really worth it.
friendships hatched,got the chance to know more people.

okaye i’m kinda lazy to blog every single details out,so i shall cut it short!
my group mates: qiaoyi, joy tan, limin, joyce, matthias, dylan, sheryl, melinda, daniel, deston
leaders: staff tay, angie and brun kiat (not sure correct not), isaac,joanne
group name: I SCREAM! (ice cream sound alike)

first day played amazing race,it past by in a blur ’cause was busy googoo gaagaa-ing about boys.typical lah.
halfway went kopitiam and act uncles take pictures.
amazing race damn cute sia we have to take photos,like guys act cute,girls act cool,girls taking unglam shoots etc
took jump shoot as well and joanne said i jumped very high x.o
had night games,think the human sandwich was rather fun.
i think i’m lucky,’cause i only 1 time kena at the most bottom.
lol staff tay damn funny when we came up she asked me in front flat already not,LOL.
played the shifting of chairs game,not fun lurh,kena sprayed at with water -.-
the station master damn pro lurh,i also never offend him he kept aiming at me ji dan!
played something like table soccer as well,3 person interlocked arms,lol i damn shy ’cause i in between of 2 guys >.<
whoosh love to kick the soccer ball.
p.s i ain’t able to fall asleep.people keep snoring :/ didn’t know girls snore also lurh horrible :/
p.s.s first time hold hand with another guy during worship other than my baby ._.lll shy uhz.

second day did community project work.
each house hold was given $1,so my group bought ice cream for the residents as our group name suggested
we all were separated,so i was with isaac and joyce
think i’m very excited about it,’cause i’m the one who kept knocking and talking to the residents most of the time
good mood lurh probably
had holy spirit night,i have to say it’s really frightening,but i was amazed by how everyone had the courage to step forward and receive cleansing.
made a confession,and i’m glad that i’m being brought back closer to God.
everyone went high after that for worship,including me.
felt so much lighter after the confession,so naturally i’m able to get into high mood,jumping around worshipping God
high~
p.s slept realy well but still not enough.eye bags super obvious,’cause stayed up to write notes for group mates.

third day was hmm.
i don’t know what to say,but it just feel so good that i’m in group “i scream”,with all my wonderful group mates and leaders.
was sad that camp ended so fast,but yet happy because i know that i will still be able to see these friends when i go to youth ablaze every saturday.
oh oh had pastamania for lunch!
wasted sia,’cause these few days don’t have much appetite,so end up not eating much,and thank you qiao yi for always so kindly offering to help me finish up my food

though the camp had ended,but it’s not the end,it’s the beginning of something new
the start of friendships.

alrights i shall go have my beauty sleep,must do mask soon eh i look like a panda already.
goodnights all my darlings [LOL]

p.s handsome guys xD

Fallling Out.

“falling out” by keyshia cole.
kinda describe how i’m feeling at certain times.
sexy song,go to my mixpod on my post 21 november and listen to it.

bro went over to his friend’s house and play,mum went to visit my great grandma with my grandmother.
bored to max at home,and so i started painting my toe nails.
no edgy colour,soft colour.pink
started off with hot pink one,and then i cleaned it off and use white.in the end decide that both look rather shyty as my hot pink nail polish is rather dry,and white need to paint many layers,so yeap.
used my mum’s nail polish in the end
p.s i suck at painting nails.

watched “where got ghost”,i think it’s rather okay lor.
not really worth it to watch it in cinema though.
well i got to admit that it’s really funny,as they used dialect more rather than plain english and chinese.
it’s quite scary as well,screamed at one part whereby the female ghost suddenly come out x.x

 

rahs it’s past midnight now,shall turn in for the night already.
still needa go school tomorrow at 10am!!!
sighs.

 

goodnight people out there.

Bored To Tears.

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract artsy people! Those free spirited artists with great imaginations find you interesting. They are usually interesting themselves, so its not a bad thing, but they CAN be a bit wifty and choose odd goals. If you like life to always be a bit ‘different’ from the norm, but not too extreme in any one direction, these are the people for you. If you seek logical decision making skills and good money management, you may want to change something in the way you appear. Artsy people are fun for adventure and exploring, so, have fun! (smoking weed helps too)
You attract unstable people!
You attract geeks!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract models!
You attract rednecks!

rather funny result.i attract no one.

Which Positive Quality Are You?   Your Result: Love You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives–these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. “All you need is love.”
Peace
Friendship
Charity
Courage
Faith

What should the opposite sex do to attract you?

My Quiz Result: If you are Taurus, to attract you, the opposite sex should cook great food for you, pamper you, be dependable and honest.

haha i think this result is true

Are you a girl next door?

My Quiz Result: You are a girl next door.

What type of a girl are you? Tomboy or girly

My Quiz Result: You are not a tomboy. You are a girly girl.

LOL,how i wish this is true lah.result is girly girl but hmm…perhaps not really.

Are your teen years rocking?

My Quiz Result: Your teen years are simply rocking. Enjoy!

totally

p.s i watched “17 again” and zac efron is freakingly hot.

Something About You Is So Addictive.

mia for days.
missed this year gb annual camp.
the weather shall take all the blame,caught a bad cold and so consulted doc and stayed at home to rest.

went to heartland mall to have lunch with my mum and bro.
shopped around,bought stationeries,rented books,bought DVDs and a loose turtleneck top.
jeez,wonder whether i did the right choice by not buying the dvd “drag me to hell”.
heard from sister that it’s really nice,just that there’s many gross scene.also there is dvd of “i am legend”,omg!!!!
rahhs.both are nice movies i bet,but well i think i shouldn’t watch too much of such gory shows,since it’s not good for health!
p.s saw a show which is scientifically proven that if a human watch a war/horror/thrilling show,his blood vessels will close up and become smaller,whereas if he watch a comedy instead,his blood vessels will become bigger!!
p.s.s i must convince myself not to go buy those 2 dvds x.x
p.s.s.s but it’s so cheap!!!”i am legend” cost only $10,then “drag me to hell” is only $12 plus! x.x

went macs to redeem my instant win fries with bro and went home while mum went ntuc to get some groceries.
hopefully one day my bro will “grow up” and accompany me go out shopping!
it’s nice to go out with him,like we can crap a lot and play a fool,however he’s a “indoor” person ._.

thursday have to go back to school and set up the gb stuff in preparations for the open house on 28 november.
walao 28 november have youth camp we all still need to rush down from church to school and do our shift.
somemore the unlucky 5 [including me most probably] have to wear gb full uniform!
that means we have to bring gb full uniform to the camp,wtf?!!
those lucky ones only need to bring school skirt,national tee,school shoes and socks.
sian to max.
am hating the life of being a gb head lurh,oh puhlease do i look like the one interested in all these bullshyt leadership stuff?
hell no.how i wish to tell the teachers and officers that since sec 1 i have never ever like gb before.
i’m just fulfilling my duty because i have to!
sucks,i can’t wait to step down,hoorays

it just don’t feel right anymore.

p.s today is such a great day [books/clothes/dvds].but all was ruined thanks to gb.

Protected: At That Moment When You Let Go.

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The First Most Uncouth Bitch I’ve Ever Met.

feeling rather frustrated.
gahh just why isn’t my monthly bestie here yet?!!
fuck camp is coming in less than a week lurh.

 

so the purpose behind my blogging today is to bitch about an uncouth indian BITCH.
no offence,it’s not that i’m being racist.
but she’s bloody fucking rude!

okaye it all started when me and my family were in compass point cold storage….
the area whereby people get their trolleys from?
it was rather packed there,with people moving about.
so me,bro and my dad were kinda stuck at that area.
and then,there’s still bitch who wanted to get the trolley,and she didn’t fucking check behind if there’s anyone there before she moved back.
my poor dad was behind her,and got banged by her big fat butt.and she scolded my dad,wtf?

after moving on to a spacier area,my dad turned and told her that there is no space just now and so she banged into her.
not even a fucking apology and yet she dared to talked back to my dad?
this is what she say when she banged into my dad,”MOVE LA.DON’T BLOCK MY PATH.”
“SO?YOU CAN JUST MOVE WHAT WHY BLOCK MY PATH?”
MA DE?!!!you think you big fuck?
if you had continue to debate with my dad i swear i would have scold you back you motherfucking bitch.
i felt rather satisfied calling her out loud that she’s a rude bitch
think she heard me but who cares?
i would have freaking scold her a tons more stuff if she didn’t leave faster.
you fucking fat bitch.
think cold storage own by your father or your ah gong arh?
fucker talked so loud for what.
only know how to kpkb.
think you very chio arh wear until like some prostitude?
HELLO.THIS CENTURY WHO STILL WEARS HORIZONTAL STRIPES SHIRT?!!
you are so fucking fat already and yet you wear such unflattering clothes.
think you very curvy arh?
you uncivilised WHORE.
oops,i forgot WHORES like YOU ain’t civilised

i really pity such people you know,thinking they own the world just because they are fat
sighs,i sympathise with your children[IF YOU HAVE ANY!haha think no man would even want her],for having an uncouth mum.
if i meet you even again,and you dare take such tone with me,rest assured i won’t let you off so easily like my dad did.
i will bloody make sure i swear at you with every single words fitted to describe you [and that includes rude/uncouth/no manners/BITCH]
it’s so saddening to have a person like you in singapore,what a disgrace.
i doubt you ever received an education,didn’t you learn manners/courtesy/social behaviours/moral education whatsoever?

 

i feel so great now.

Love Has No Expiry.

some guy friends are not worth to make.
guys like YOU.

 

it’s a rather “sian day”.
took a nap in the afternoon,so satisfying as the weather was really good.
went to church for youth ablaze.
after which went out to have dinner with relatives to celebrate my grandfather’s birthday.

tired to max to the power of infinity.

can’t wait for monday to come
vivo city with darling.
<3
p.s pray that i won’t forget to meet jasmine at buangkok mrt station to pass her present!

 

my dearest monthly bestie can you come now please?!!!

 

 

sighs.
sometimes i just have to say life sucks.

I Need You More And More Each Day.

trip to science centre “body worlds” exhibition!

took bus 112 to school,met sherry in the bus and started chatting
oh yeah there is this super bitch teacher,don’t know what’s her name.
gahh bitched so much about her to my mum just now that i don’t feel like bitching about it on my blog already x.o
goodness this type of teacher nor worth of my respect to max yo.
who cares about a teeny weeny teacher like her?

setted off to science centre [thank goodness we 305 girls are not stuck with the bitchy teacher!],and the journey took 1 hour if i’m not wrong!
though the journey was long,but did had fun with sister hp game,brain juice :D
hahaha i won you in colour chart sis,hands down!
me as fast as cheetah leh ;D

overall i think the exhibition is fabulous.
i was so intrigued that for nearly every showcase i checked out the body from all 4 sides and angles x.x
i even checked out the eye colours and the guy’s bodies!
LOL those with the muscles all intact one [and not dissected into some other stuff] had hot bodies,bet they all are super cute when they were alive with skin and everything still on x.o
okayesss sorry for sounding like a pervert x.x
P.S PLEASE GO AND CHECK OUT THE BODY WORLDS PEOPLE.i think it’s worth the money,what’s mroe if you are sian/disgusted by it you can always check out the science centre and the water place

went to hougang mall and had macs with sister,jia nan and xiao xin
had my favourite mcspicy!
spicy until i can feel my face turning hot lurh :/
but i still like it >.<
bought kfc zinger burger meal for bro and home.

 

alrights it’s getting late shall go sleep soon soon,byes!

Sometimes I Can’t Help But To Feel That Things Just Ain’t The Same Anymore.

pictures from halloween~
credits to weishan

 

chinese o levels today.
my goodness,i can’t believe i just went to sit for the exams despite knowing that i didn’t prepare myself well for it.
pray to God that i will at least get an A2,if not next year no more higher mother tongue for me.

feel like i’m damn unfortunate.
first,when i move on from letter writing to compo,my dictionary broke down suddenly.
changed the battery,meddled with it for nearly 10 minutes,but still no use.
and thus i depended on what i remember,and mostly all are wrong.
p.s guess what when i took it home my mum tried to switch it on and use and miraculously,it revived again.WTF _l_ why must you do this to me you idiot.
p.s.s i learnt a lesson.always bring a thick paperback dictionary everytime.

super short short break,and paper 2 starts.
was already damn freaking pissed over my dictionary and in the end i can’t even concentrate on my paper 2,because SOMEONE KEPT SNIFFING HIS NOSE whatever!
he’s not blowing his nose,but like sniffing it back i don’t know lurh!!!
fuck!
you sniffed so loudly every few seconds,you sneezed once in awhile,you coughed once in awhile,HOW YOU FREAKING EXPECT ME TO ATTEMPT MY PAPERS!!!!
throughtout the whole papers you are like that,feel like punching your disgusting face lurh.
fuck,nearly can’t finish my papers you know.
ARSEHOLE.
p.s i don’t quite care you are my classmate or not.please be more considerate the next time,you sick then request to sit somewhere else la.disturb me with all your stupid disgusting noises.

 

went home after papers,damn no mood.
rahhhhs.
i’m SWEY,that’s sucha understatement.

 

 

body world exhibition tomorrow.